Monday, August 30, 2010

Something Duluth something.

Mr. and Mrs. Fat Tony were wed this weekend in our hometown of Duluth, MN. Of course none of us are truly native Duluthians, but we call it our home for a multitude of reasons.

Tony and his missus are wonderful. We love them. We love them so much. We wanted their love celebrated in true Duluthian fashion. So we came from Minneapolis, Mankato, and Boston. We drove, we flew, we sang, we laughed, we ate drive-thru food, we (briefly) got lost in the suburbs, we got so excited we could barely contain ourselves.


It began where Duluth sojourns normally do. A few pints of Lake Superior Kayak Kolsch while reacquainting yourself with Lake Superior herself. The sun shines down so innocuously until all of a sudden you notice it and say to your companion, "it's fucking perfect."


You forgot that Duluth is smaller than your city, as you run into an old friend at Target. "Come to dinner. Bring our friends." A table for five immediately doubles in size. Some eat wild rice burgers. Some eat thirty-five jalepenos. All drink beers. Starfire Pale Ale - high five! Lighthouse Golden - don't judge! Apricot Wheat - Apricot Wheat - Apricot Wheat! Wildfire Lager - burns! I forgot how much I miss you -- I forgot how much I love you. What are you doing next? Nothing? I've got a plan. It's fucking perfect.


Dance! Dance!! Dance!!! Spin, twirl, throw yourself into the arms of your friends. It's like you never left, like there isn't time or distance separating anything you once knew. You are here tonight, you were here last night, the night before, last week, last month, last year, all the time. All of a sudden someone is hollering to pay $40 to whoever can get Fat Tony's shirt off his back and you think to yourself, "this is fucking perfect." Hold up. Are those Ray-Bans?



Love. The weather is gorgeous. The flowers are gorgeous. She is gorgeous. He is gorgeous. You are gorgeous. We are gorgeous. The wind whisks away their words, leaving the vows in the space between the husband and wife. As you wipe away your tears of happiness and love, you lean over to your bff and whisper, "this is fucking perfect."


Celebrate! Eat great food, drink free wine! Take photos, do the hallway dance. Request your own personal jams, request those that your friends will dance to, request those that encourage wonderful memories, request those that require spelling out F-to the-E-R-G-the I-the E. Sarah Fuller knows the entire "Single Ladies" dance, and she will avoid the bouquet with you. We sing, we dance, we drink, we love, we celebrate so much we know we'll be sore. You wait in the long line for the ladies' room and overhear your friend looking for your group by declaring "I'm the date of a girl." You laugh out loud, grasping for your friend's hand, and you think to yourself, "this is so fucking perfect."


You want food. It's late. You get what you want eventually, and believe me, everything tastes so much better after mooning a fast food establishment from across the street. A rodeo burger from Burger King and a chocolate milkshake? Fucking perfect.



You are different. Duluth is the same. Your friendships are the same. Your love is the same. It's always good to go home, to be reminded of your growing pains, your mistakes, the bumps in your path... the reasons you laugh, the reasons you love, the reasons you are who you are right now. Remember that time we got in trouble? That time you cut your foot on that rock? That time we went here, the time we did that? We laugh, we hug, we go our separate ways, promising to keep in touch better, to see each other soon. We go home, return to reality. Our jobs, our bills, our friends, our beds, our cats (both skinny and fat).

But that glorious weekend vacation to a different time and place to come together and celebrate one of our own was truly... perfect.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

It's 7am.

I went to bed last night at 1am, on a high after seeing fucking Mos Def live at some big blue box downtown. I woke up quite suddenly three hours later, anxious, restless, and very awake. I watched the majority of a movie to try to lull me back to the unconscious state from where I had abruptly come from but the next thing I knew it was no longer dark outside. Shit.

My thoughts went to my boyfriend. What would I do if he was here? Rouse him in the hopes of some blue activities that would eventually put me back to sleep, or perhaps to have a companion awake at this hour (aside from the cats, who I could hear meowing in front of my door)? Alas, I was alone, and thoroughly awake.

So now what?



I don't know. My options seem limited, as my non-feline comrades are all sound asleep in their cozy beds and lollipop dreamworlds. And here I sit, yawning, but not sleeping, with a decision to make. Sleep now, and sleep until noon? Or get the f up and crash hard later? Neither decision has a desirable outcome.

What if I would have just not opened my eyes when I first stirred three hours ago? Would I have fallen back to sleep, blissfully unaware of these few hours of semi-conscious hell? Or was I always destined to experience this early morning fucking insomnia for a greater purpose?

The sun's up now. Balls.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010